love you madly.

idrink_plaidtea @ 2008-06-09T13:13:00

2008-06-09T18:42:49Z

i didnt get enough sleep at all. Hello weird survey.

[1] Do you say the pledge in school?
-yeah in high school and schtuff

[2] If someone offered you a thousand dollars to eat a whole rose--thorns and all--would you do it?
-mmm, no i couldnt do that i don't care if i'm broke

[3] Where do you think your last ex is right now?
-being a jerk to some other dumb bitch, "tricking out" whatever car there is around

[4] Do you think gym class is just a waste of a class? Why or why not?
-naw i didn't mind it

[5] Do you also think that Munchos are the best potato chip out there?
-what the fuck is a muncho?

[6] Type your name except using your boy/girlfriend's last name (if you don't have one, just use a celebrity or something)
-rachel callahan

[7] Have you ever thought about online dating? If so, were you desperate?
-oh hell no, there's something wrong with people who need that

[8] Do you think that anyone who practices witchcraft is evil?
-they can do whatever, just don't get all preachy

[9] Is it possible for good to exist without evil?
-usually

[10] Do you believe that there's a bit of bad in everything good and a bit of good in everything bad?
-eh it's a toss up, some people are just truly kind hearted

[11] Speaking of which, what's your views on Confucious?
-can't say i've read too much about him. but he seems nice

[12] When you're dating someone, do you celebrate anniversaries by month?
-We mention it to each other but it's not a big party kind of thing

[13] Do you like Twizzlers?
-love them

[14] Have you ever been in a chemical romance (a relationship where one person is using the other)?
-a handful

[15] Are you sick of all the survey questions asking about iPods?
-no?..

[16] What song(s) have you recently discovered and loved?
-The Ting Tings, a few bob marley songs i had never listened to

[17] Do you drink hot cocoa in the summer?
-oh yeah it's delicious anytime

[18] Do you even know the difference between "you're" and "your"?
-You ARE going to the park. the park is YOURS!

[19] If you graduated high school, did you get a class ring? If you didn't graduate yet, do you want to get one?
-yeah i got one

[20] Think of the last yearbook you got. Do you like the picture of yourself in it?
-yeah i got a little smirk going on like "i'm getting the fuck out of this place"

[21] Would you rather live in a quiet apartment in a nice place in NYC or a noisy, big house with rude neighbors in New Mexico?
-New York, always

[22] What religion were you born into and what religion are you now?
-i don't really know..i think i was supposed to be catholic. but my family doesnt do anything religious at all

[23] Do you get confused between the difference of Catholics and Christians?
-i just know that they both need to quit trying to convert me

[24] When people get the Japanese symbol for "love" or whatever tattooed on them, do you ever wonder if that symbol really means what they say it does?
-no that's their regret when it's stretched out from kids

[25] If you had to get a tattoo right now in any place and of any design, where would you get it and of what design?
-probably a little heart and a big heart intertwining, somewhere on my arm, i've been pondering it for a while

[26] Have you ever made a MySpace for something weird? If so, what was it?
-just one for myself

[27] Which do you like better, Facebook or MySpace?
-they're both alright

[29] What do you think of your bus driver this year?
-i drive myself, i think i'm ok

[30] If you had a slinky, did it even go all the way down the flight of stairs like it did on the commercial?
-noo it always stopped halfway

[31] Ever been to Disney Land? What about Disney World?
-disney land i think like two times

[32] Do you like things that glow in the dark?
-they're ok i guess

[33] Would you ever dye your hair an unnatural color?
-i already have, hello red stripe and orange bangs!

[34] Think of your closest friend of the same sex. Now think of their boy/girlfriend or whoever they like.
Do you think they're attractive, too?
-I guess Tyler is a pretty cute guy

[35] What's your favorite flavor of cotton candy?
-i think it all tastes the same

[36] Have you ever stolen a tray from your school cafeteria? What about a fast food restaurant?
-nah

[37] If you're in high school, what's your elective?
-I used to take at least two art classes every semester

[38] When people ask your religion and you tell them, do they gasp?
-no they usually just ask a couple questions. "but jesus was real why would you say that??"

[39] Has anyone ever given you a red rose?
-no, pink ones though

[40] If you had the opportunity to get a mohawk and it looked really good on you, would you get it?
-hmm no, i like to have a little hair to throw up in a ponytail

[41] If you can change any one thing about your appearance without any pain or money involved, what would you change?
-i would consider having my nose fixed...maybe.

[42] What's your favorite place to go for an Italian ice?
-i had really good gelato in california

[43] What about your favorite pizza place?
-i'm sorry, i adore pizza hut

[44] Do you follow the 10 Commandments?
-the what?

[45] What's your feelings about sex? Are you waiting for marriage?
-ahh, that's a little late in the game. i mean you gotta test the drive the car man. honestly.

[46] Did you ever hear about the youngest mother being only 5-years-old? True story! Look it up if you don't believe me:
-what the hell. No, i refuse to believe that malarky.

[47] Does your school have A/C?
-yes of course

[48] What's the last awesome gift you can remember someone giving you?
-my ipod

[49] Look at your buddylist.
What's the stupidest/lamest/funniest screenname you can find?
-i dunno i guess ryan's is a little confusing

[50] Do you think a relationship would work between you and the person you like now? If you're already with that person, do you think it'll last a long time?
-i hope it lasts, it's going quite well

[51] What do you do when there's a question in a survey that you don't want to answer?
-i ignore it

[52] How do you usually greet people you're very friendly with (ex.
boy/girlfriends, best friends, close friends, family)?
-i say hello and possibly hug. ex boyfriends get no recognition. maybe spit.

[53] What's your favorite flavor of cake frosting?
-chocolate

[54] Do you think cakes actually taste better without the frosting?
-no you need frosting

[55] On a scale of 1-10, how do you rate your personality?
-it's flexible

[56] Are you annoyed when people scream words like 'monkeys', 'rawr', 'cupcake', or 'sharpies' and think they're random?
-what kind of question is that

[57] Name a piece of your clothing that's entirely unique (ex. something you made or altered).
-i like ry's dad's old shirt, the ded beats

[58] What's better, the donut or the donut hole (Munchkins)?
-donut

[59] Where's your nearest deli?
-uhh there's a subway a few blocks up

[60] Does it bother you how black people can say the n-word all the want, but when a white person says it, it's suddenly a huge deal?
-i don't give a shit man, who cares

[61] How long does it take you to do your makeup in the morning?
-maybe ten or fifteen minutes

[62] do you have acne problems?
-nope

[63] Are the hallways at your school crowded?
-no it's usually pretty empty

[64] Isn't it gross when naturally pretty girls pile on tons of lipgloss, concealer, eyeliner and who knows what else?
-that's their own fault

idrink_plaidtea @ 2007-08-17T19:10:00

2007-08-18T00:18:09Z

I think my full-blown regret just set in.
Scrolling through my contact list in my phone was depressing. Everyone's gone, and i dont even call the people that are sticking around that much. I dont want to be sitting alone on a friday night, every friday, until people come back for fall break and shit like that. I can visit old teachers but only so much so it doesnt feel like i still go to high school. I'm signing up for contemporary classes soon but i mean other than that, what do i really have?
School, dance, and like 5 friends? Work as well, but barely.
I know it was mostly my own decision to stay here for another year, i just didnt think it would feel this way immediately. I thought the missing of my friends would come and go instead of just coming and staying. It's not like i expect people to feel sorry for me, i'm just not really sure about what i'm doing anymore. It seems like i graduated, and then i kind of lost my place. I dont have a set group of friends anymore, everyone i used to be able to just see around is gone, mostly to different states, nevermind a 20 minute drive or whatever.
I guess, what my main point is, i just dont know what to do with myself.

idrink_plaidtea @ 2006-04-27T22:08:00

2006-04-28T03:34:49Z

I dont feel like rambling so i'll list my feelings.

1. I dont think im gonna get my 14 dollars back since Schenone got pick-pocketed with my cash in her wallet at the pageant. Remind self to pull 20 more outta the bank.
2. Aaron's going to alot of trouble to make me mega mixtapes with at least 1,000 songs so far. also remind self to thank him enormously.
3. Buy prom shoes goddammit, the dance is saturday and its friday tomorrow. shit im a slacker. to buy fake eyelashes or not...hm.
4. Got the 'yer too skinny thing again' today, so maybe i should stop skipping meals just cause i dont feel like eating.
5. buy obnoxiously big audrey hepburn-ish sunglasses tomorrow cause im sicka mine.
6. I want to do something really rediculously awesome for the AP art show next month. I want to be up there with the big guys. But what to do?
7. maybe actually try planning my day tomorrow cause it sounds too exciting to wing it. oh em gee lolz im shutting up now.

idrink_plaidtea @ 2006-03-08T23:26:00

2006-03-09T05:27:52Z

I can't wait up all night to tell you.
But i'm sorry, im just so sorry.
And i miss you alot.
and that's it..I just do.

idrink_plaidtea @ 2005-11-16T17:56:00

2005-11-16T23:58:58Z

im excited for my next art project. completely open. whatever material, size, color, or shape we want. I for one am doing photography. I want to do Allison and Aaron standing under the arch or having it in the background, something romantic like that. Probably a collage of some sort, on mat board or whatever i can scrape up at work. probably alot of extra cardboard from all the storage boxes or something.
by the way, i really love my job. like really. Too bad its only seasonal. But i think i want to apply to Kaldi's coffee after the musical ends.

idrink_plaidtea @ 2005-10-28T17:02:00

2005-10-28T22:03:12Z

and this is where i sigh, hang my head, and say
"wow im such an idiot. what the fuck."

the end.

idrink_plaidtea @ 2005-10-23T18:20:00

2005-10-23T23:24:42Z

i feel a slight tinge of regret on not going to my school production of the Miracle Worker. Is that a bad sign?
Yes...yes actually, i think it is. because
A.) i hate one of the main people acting in it
B.) what the fuck, this was supposed to be my i-hate-school year not doing anything school related
C.) i must be coming down with something.

i actually didnt get kicked in the ass at portfolio day. They uh, they liked my work.
Well like is putting it a little too strongly, they had some objections towards a few pieces. But honestly they liked most of my stuff. I got positive feedback and that just blew me out of the water.
Although i do have to work a little harder, just because i can never be personally satisfied. Just in future pieces, they said work more from life.
But life is so boring.

For you.

2005-10-21T03:24:58Z

I never truly apoligized for everything.
im so sorry. Im so, incredibly sorry. For everything i put you through. The stress, the groundings. Making you take me home just because i was too young to drive and i was too intimidated to call my parents. Getting caught falling asleep at 2 a.m. Im sorry if i ever embarassed you. Im sorry if i ever made you feel unwanted. Im so sorry for making you upset. not a day goes by that i dont think about you. That i think about how things could have been right now if i had just been a better girlfriend to you. But i loved you so much, i just didnt know how to tell you or show you. I still love you so much. Its heart breaking how much i still care for you. Not just in a passion way, but you're a very dear friend to me as well. I miss being your best friend that was a girl. I never got to thank you for everything you've ever done for me. You bought me a freaking bass for my birthday and you tried to make the best of my night and you brought me to a friend's house for a bonfire cause i had just got back into town. I miss those times so much you have no idea. Sometimes i wonder if you still think about them as well. I dunno. Im not good at confrentation. I've just bottled up all these feelings because i dont want to make you uncomfortable. I always consider your reaction before mine. So, im really sorry for trying to defend myself and acting like a bitch. I know i "had the right to" but you know me, my guilt always catches up. I can never stay mad at you. I never could. Im glad things are starting to patch up. Im gonna miss you when you leave school. Its just not gonna be the same.
You might not read this, but i just dont know how to sum it all up to you in person without getting all emotional and shit.

-rachel.

idrink_plaidtea @ 2005-10-15T00:23:00

2005-10-15T05:24:42Z

all these problems on my mind
make it hard for me to think
there is no way i can stop
my poor brain is gonna pop
and i dont have a purpose,
scattered on the surface
i need to find some peace.

some goddamn peace instead of all this crying once in a while.
fuck.

idrink_plaidtea @ 2005-10-05T17:03:00

2005-10-05T22:05:24Z

the lonliest feeling ive had in a really long time hit me today when i kept being shimmied down the ticket line. and finally gave a very pretty (in a conventional sort of way) girl my check for $10, and bought a single ticket to the homecoming dance. Single. and it hit really hard.

idrink_plaidtea @ 2005-09-28T22:15:00

2005-09-29T03:48:23Z

GENERAL:
Name: Rachel
Nicknames: Rayray, Rach, rachie, Rachelle
Birthday and Age: March 27th, 89. 16.
Location: Missouri
Siblings: Chris (19)
Ringtone: Rock the casbah-the clash
Pets: Audrey and Barclay
School: Lafayette High.
Hair Color: Dark-ish brown
Eye Color: Brown
Height: 5'6

LIST YOUR FAV:
5 Bands: Alkaline trio, Say Anything, Death cab for cutie, The killers, weezer
5 Stores: Rag-O-rama, american eagle (their jeans fit well), gadzooks, delias, forever 21
5 Foods: taco bell, steak N shake, more taco bell, st. louis bread Co., quiznos
5 Hobbies: painting, photography, biting my nails, sewing, dancing
5 Websites: this one, myspace, stlpunk.com, purevolume, yahoo.
5 Beverages: strong coffee, iced coffee, iced tea, green apple jones soda, kool aid
5 Animals: puppies, kittens, deer, penguins, the muppets.
5 Places to be: bed, the creepy crawl, steak N shake, living room, taco bell

The Last...:
Song you listened to: Panic! at the disco-'lying is the most fun'
Person you heard their voice: uncle hector
Thing you ate: cake my mom baked
Thing you drank: Looza juice
Movie you watched: When Harry Met Sally
Thing you got in the mail: a college packet to some shit in lousiana
Place you went outside of the house: school.
Person you touched: mom
Thing you worried about: being forgotten
Time you cried: last night
Annoyance: people asking why im so skinny.

THIS OR THAT:
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Pizza or Chicken Fingers: both
Mexican or Chinese: both
Digital or Film Photography: you can do more with digital, but film is better for classic style.
Barney or Carebears: Carebears, barney scares the shit out of me.
Rain or Shine: Shine, i hate rain.
Black or White: a mix of the two.
Text messaging or calling: texting, but not if its worthless crap like "omg so bored."
Email or IM: IM
Livejournal or Regular Journal: livejournal is more at my fingertips compared to running upstairs and getting my other one.
Rap or Pop: Rap. Mike jones...not really.
Popcorn or Chips: Black pepper jack chips
Dozen Roses or Dozen Daisys: Roses, except thats never gonna happen because i suck.
Sleep or Awake: sleep, its alot more comforting.

idrink_plaidtea @ 2005-09-24T22:52:00

2005-09-25T03:53:50Z

im so angry with myself. I cant help it.
i feel like im wasting my life away. And it hurts.

idrink_plaidtea @ 2005-09-08T15:41:00

2005-09-08T20:43:47Z

EVERYONE shut up about homecoming!
im single and i have no one to go with, dear god do i have to punch you in the face repeatedly?
Im sick of hearing about freshman planting a dozen roses in their date's lockers. I want roses. But im not going to get any....so fuck you all.

Except for leah, thats awesome that whatshisface likes you. oh snap.

idrink_plaidtea @ 2005-09-02T15:20:00

2005-09-02T20:21:53Z

hey ladies
drop it down
just wanna see you touch the ground
dont be shy girl, go banaza
shake ya body like a belly danc-a

idrink_plaidtea @ 2005-08-29T15:42:00

2005-08-29T20:46:24Z

is it really that frowned upon if you hate someone so severely, or just loathe the ground they walk on so much that you could see yourself "accidentally" keying their car...and you dont even know them? I had that feeling about three times today. All to different people.
I would rather stick my foot up their ass than be any of their friends. ever.
And if i do see your car, i will not hesitate to roughly swing my heavy 6-book laden shoulder bag against the tail lights. bitch.

idrink_plaidtea @ 2005-08-25T21:39:00

2005-08-26T02:47:32Z

i think...i might take a crack at therapy.

not to be weird/morbid/emo, whatever you wish to label it. i just think i need someone who can really truly listen to me and help me and give me advice without being judgemental or anything. Bryant used to always help me with that. Maybe its time i ask him for some help.
I just cant go through another week like this, stalking around the school, unintentionally glaring at anyone who might pass by. I just have too much on my mind, im just always too tired to think straight. The only time i am completely at peace with everything is when im spacing out and drawing. Im not going to give up, im going to get help. Whether it be a doctor or just a concerned citizen.

idrink_plaidtea @ 2005-08-10T22:56:00

2005-08-11T03:58:39Z

Fuck yeah Mr. Laster put me in ecology in a snap. I walked into school this morning and a huge line was in front of the counselor's office but i signed onto Laster's clipboard and I only waited about 10 minutes just talking to Lloyd before i completely hopped the line and he printed out a new schedule for me. All the same classes, in all the same hours. I love you, mr. Laster. Not literally but...yes. Moving on, i also got lockers next to Hancock, Alex Fuchs, and mr. rick petty in the junior hall, and not the fuckin reject hallway, such was last year.
And come to think of it, work rocks my argyle knee socks. The people there dont take the "Nth degree" [now THAT'S hospitality!] rule seriously at all. They're all really nice about it being my first week, and all I have to worry about is memorizing the table order and numbers. Jessica is an S.A there so we talk alot. And im really not intimadated by the fact that I might be working some same shifts as Bryant. I guess i might be a little embarassed, but, I guess just focus on the customers. it'll be great. This year is really lookin up for me.

idrink_plaidtea @ 2005-08-07T22:07:00

2005-08-08T03:14:13Z

i have a second interview for the old spaghetti factory tomorrow.

in your face applebees. In. your. face.

but this means i have to be all smiley-faced and outgoing tomorrow. Ugh. I'm not in the mood at alllll. But i need the money and it's better than selling myself to Hardees or somewhere.

idrink_plaidtea @ 2005-08-02T00:06:00

2005-08-02T05:18:03Z

Today....i bought school supplies. Christ what a slap in the face that was. Surrounded by screaming children wanting THAT EXACT My Little Pony folder. I cant deny that i was tempted myself, but instead of struggle for a fancy type, i went for the 15 cent red one. Much more practical. Got my annual 5 subject notebook, and two packs of mechanical pencils for only $3.49, oh boy! I figure that was enough to tide me over for a about a week without making me feel sick.
I'm getting very impatient for my Dell DJ to get here. Technically it's only been 1 business day to get it shipped out, but my dad ordered it 3 days ago. Dell is testing my patience. And i am not amused. I keep trying to track down the order but i cant get into his goddamn account. So i'm basically left in the dark until mr. USPS pulls up and i can dowload every song i own onto it.
Take that you iPod cult.

idrink_plaidtea @ 2005-07-18T21:56:00

2005-07-19T02:57:02Z

you know what I hate even more than milk?

SHITTY FRIENDS
AND BEING DITCHED.

idrink_plaidtea @ 2005-07-13T00:40:00

2005-07-13T05:41:42Z

i'm bored, shut up.

i am : tired as hell
i want : to lose weight. (dont say im crazy ive already heard it)
i have : no money.
i wish : it wouldn't rain tomorrow
i hate : socialists. and country music.
i miss : Bryant
i fear : losing Ericka.
i hear : the airconditioning
i search : for lyrics.
i wonder : what time im finally going to bed.
i regret : having this whole friend controversy, and alot more things.
i love : my bass.
i ache : in my feet and jaw.
i am not : the brightest crayon in the box.
i dance : in the car and at shows
i sing : when i feel comfortable
i cry : when im angry
i am not always : so dumb
i write : alot of stuff i dont necessarily mean, so people take it out of context
i confuse : everyone
i need : a job
i should : look for one tomorrow.
x. father thinks i am: an okay kid
x. mother thinks i am: really weird with a bad attitude
x. three things you are often complimented for: my outfits, my hair, my room.
x. you get embarrassed when: i say something really really stupid.
x. makes you happy: compliments on my face cause i have low self esteem
x. upsets you: when people go fucking psychotic on me for no reason.

yes or no...
x. you keep a diary: i do
x. you like to cook: i like baking, there's a difference
x. you have a secret you have not shared with anyone: quite a handful
x. you set your watch a few minutes ahead: not intentionally
x. you bite your fingernails: used to
x. you believe in love: yes.

Who is...?
The weirdest person you know : Collier (but in a cool way)
the Loudest Person you Know : Danna
Your closest friends : Schenone, Ericka, and Bryant
the Person that Knows the Most about you : bryant
person u feel the most comfortable with : Bryant
What is...?
your most overused phrase on IM : haha
the last image/thought you go to sleep with?: umm...me passing out on my bed?
your best feature : not a thing.
Inside joke : "it's a new rekkid"
Do you?

`.think you know you've been in love: oh yeah.
`.want to get married: eventually
`.have any tattoos/where?: nope
`.piercings/where?: ears, how lame.
`.get motion sickness: yeah sometimes
`.think you're a health freak: nahhh
`.get along with your parents: sometimes
`.like thunderstorms: hell no i hate those

3. RANDOM:
SCREEN NAMES: eh its in my information, look it up.
SIGN: aries
NATURAL HAIR COLOR: brown
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: brown with bad highlight things
EYE COLOR: brown. and gross.
BIRTHPLACE: Newcastle, England

( FAVORITES )
NUMBER: dont have one
COLOR: deep red
DAY: any day in summer
MONTH: ohh, march-my birthday and the awesome weather
SONG: shit i dunno
FOOD: pasta
SEASON: fall
SPORT: um, does figure skating count
DRINK: Jone's soda in D'Peach Mode
VEGGIE: avacado, is that a veggie?
( PREFERENCES )
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT? both
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE? both
MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE? dark
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE? chocolate

( IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU.... )
CRIED? no
HELPED SOMEONE? sorta
BOUGHT SOMETHING? stole somethin
GOTTEN SICK?: no
GONE TO THE MOVIES? no
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? went to sonic and ganked rick's fries
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? to my mom...
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? no
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? yeah
TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU CRUSH ON? your mother's face.
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? i try to avoid those
MISSED SOMEONE? yes
HUGGED SOMEONE? yes
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? nah
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? it was more of a confrontation.

idrink_plaidtea @ 2005-07-08T18:38:00

2005-07-08T23:38:34Z

I want.......to feel happy again.

idrink_plaidtea @ 2005-06-17T21:36:00

2005-06-18T02:38:34Z

Hung out with "allison squared", Nicole, and Ericka last night! Didn't actually sleep over, I got dropped off along with Ericka later in the night cause her parents said she couldn't sleep over, and my mom called me reminding me that my dad was going out of town to London. So i came home and spent some time with the family, and today I think i want to burn the postal service CD but it goes on my dad's visa and i think i'd feel kinda mean doing that.
At least they apoligized for coming down so hard on me about my report card. It said I had a D- overall in History, and that I completely flunked my final. AHA! I got a letter in the mail yesterday from my history teacher saying that I got a B on the final, and that my overall grade was a C+ ! Ugh, ta da, Rachel's not a complete idiot.

Hancock ^ Schenone ^

Nicole

Ericka's gossip magazine, we were all checking out Jack Osbourne's freaky makeover

Ericka

Hancock was telling a really weird story, which explains her face...it would make more sense if I remembered it.

Schenone was so excited on how good her butt looked in her new pants haha

"Eat the pill son, It will make you happy!" "But I'm already happy!!" Brendan and Collier

Brendan again

Look Schenone's an angellll

Uh...so is Stash

brendan's just a weird angel.

idrink_plaidtea @ 2005-04-16T14:49:00

2005-04-16T19:55:58Z

I need some sort of lace or black ribbon choker to wear with it. Mabe with a pedant or something too. I dunno I'll have to look if i go out tomorrow. That necklace in the picture doenst look right.

idrink_plaidtea @ 2005-03-30T15:21:00

2005-03-30T21:22:44Z

i decided that last post was really self-centered of me.
sorry. i was just pissed. I will continue to make my thoughts private and tone down the emo now.
onward.